The means of the joyness :'D

Semua itu,menghantamku secara sempurna.
Saat kenyataan dan harapan tIdak bisa mengimbangi logika & hati.
Disaat orang-orang yang bahagia tersakiti, disaat orang-orang yang tersakiti bahagia.
Mereka belum tau arti kebahagiaan sesungguhnya.
krna kbahagiaan yang sesungguhnya itu datang dari orang yang menyayangimu dengan ketulusnnya.
Mereka akan memberi kekuatan kepadamu.
Tapi jangan meminta orang menyayangimu secara tlus.
Karena, sesungguhnya kebahagiaan sejati itu datang atas dasar sebuah ketulusan bukan atas sebuah permintaan.
Dan biarkanlah mreka menyakitimu.
Karena, disaat itulah kamu akan merasakan sebuah kekuatan yang diberikan oleh orang-orang terkasih.
Mereka adalah "malaikat perantara" dari Allah yang tak pernah kamu sadari kehadirannya.

Untukmu, sahabatku :')

Ini kenang-kenangan dari ajeng, sebelum kepindahan gue ke kaliamantan :")
Gue speechless banget!
Thanks a lot my bestiess :* 

waktu terasa semakin kelabu
tinggalkan cerita tentang kita.
akan tiada lagi kini tawamu tuk hapuskan semua sepi di hati.
ada cerita tentang
aku dan dia
dan kita bersama saat dulu kala.
ada cerita tentang masa
yang indah
saat kita berduka, saat kita tertawa.
teringat di saat kita tertawa bersama
ceritakan semua tentang kita..


Lagu ini, khusus buat lu des. Sahabat gw yg paling gw sayang. Maaf, disaat2 lu pgn brgkat ke Kalimantan, gw malah gabisa buat hari2 lu disini jadi indah krna gw terlalu sibuk. :'( gw ngrasa bersalah bgt des sma lu :'( dan gw juga gabisa kasihin elu kenang2an yg indah. :'( maafin gw des :'( tapi gw cuma mau 1 hal dri lu, plis jgn lupain gw.. Jgn lupain smua kenangan disaat kita sama2 lg seneng dan lg susah des :') kenangan dimana kita bsa belajar bnyak hal baru des.. Kenangan kita disaat kita ngerasain jatuh bangun krna cinta des :') kita yg dlu ngerasa dia yg kita cinta itu malaikat, ternyata sepenuh'a bukan. :'( kita sma2 nangis dlu krna kita sakit krna cinta yg ga pasti :'( tpi dari situ kita juga bsa bnyak blajar des klo yg terlihat indah itu ga selama'a memberikan kesan yg indah.. Jgn lupain masa2 SMP kita des, disaat dlu kta sma2 ngrasa down krna gapunya teman yg bnr2 pduli sma kita sampe akhir'a kita nemuin orang2 yg tulus sayang sma kita. Jgn lupain juga des tempat favorit kita, KJD! Ditempat itulah, kita bsa ngelepas smua beban kita.

Walaupun kita sering ribut, tpi gw harap lu ga benci sma gw des. Dan lu tau ga apa yg gw rasain krna lu pgn pergi ke Kalimantan? Rasa'a sebagian nyawa gw bakal ilang des. Krna bgi gw, lu sbagian dri nyawa gw des. Maafin gw des kalo lu bsa punya temen yg urakan dan aneh kyk gw des. Sampe2 lu gedek dan ilfil sma gw. Tapi tingkah gw aneh dihadapan lu, supaya lu bisa ketawa saat sma gw.

Tapi gw gatau des, apa gw masih kuat senyum klo sobat gw bkalan pergi jauh ninggalin gw dan gatau kpan balik'a? :'( cuma lu des sobat gw yg paling paham gw! :'( lu tuh tau gak? Lu tuh temen gw yg bsa bwa gw masuk ke dalam salon! Cuma lu des yg bsa :') kalo gw sms lu disaat gw lg sedih, lu pasti ngajakin gw keliling bintaro naek motor. Jahat'a gw yg slalu ngbuat lu boncengin gw! :'D waktu dlu des, pas gw lg disakitin dan digantungin sma orang yg gw sayang, cuma lu des, cuma lu yg bsa nemenin gw saat itu. Kita nginep bareng dirumah lu, ke BP photo box dgn gaya yg gokil, dan itu smua bkal jdi kenangan yg indah bgt buat gw des :'D maaf blum sempet ketemu lu akhir2 ini, bukan'a gw benci sma lu, tpi waktu yg gak mendukung :'( maafin gw juga yg gabisa kasih kenang2an yg berharga buat lu, krna gw bingung harus kasih apa ke elu :'( mungkin cuma catetan ini doang yg bsa gw kasih ke elu. :'( emg ga ada harga'a bgt des, tpi dicatetan ini gw ngingetin smua masa2 bareng kita des :') bahwa ini tuh bukti, kalo gw sayang bgt sma lu des :') gw gamau lu lupain gw disana :') lu sobat gw des, lu tuh nyawa buat gw :') dan inilah berat'a gw buat ngelepas lu pergi ke Kalimantan :'( lu malah lbh milih orang utan dibanding gw -_-


inti'a gw cuma ksh tau 1 hal ke elu, GW SAYANG BANGET SAMA LU SEBAGAI SOBAT GW, DES! :'D
Gw harap lu paham des :')

sekian catetan ini gw buat des.. Maaf kalo ada kesalahan kata2 dan gw harap lu baca catetan gw ini des.. Berat untuk ngelepas sobat westlifers gw :'( dan ini lagu khusus buat lu des :') semoga lu suka :')
goodbye DESO! Semoga lu bsa lbh sukses di Kalimantan sana :'D
And, this is song for you :'D :

You and I, weve
been at it so long
I still got the
strongest fire
You and I, we still
know how to talk
Know how to
walk that wire

Sometimes I feel
like The world is
against me
The sound of your
voice, baby
That's what
saves me
When we're
together I feel so
invincible

Cause it's us
against the world
You and me
against them all
If you listen to
these words
Know that we are
standing tall
I don't ever see
the day that
I won't catch you
when you fall
Cause it's us
against the world
tonight

Us against the
world
Against the world

Therell be days
Well be on
different sides
but
That doesnt last
too long
We find ways to
get it on track
And know how to
turn back on

Sometimes I feel
I cant keep it
together
Then you hold me
close
And you make it
better
When Im with
you
I can feel so
unbreakable

We're not gonna break Cause we both still believe We know what we've got And we've got what we need alright We're doing something right...
:'( :') :'D {}

Pemberian sebongkah perasaan kepada sebuah raga

Maha suci Engkau ya Allah, yang telah menciptakan perasaan.
Maha besar Engkau yang telah menciptakan ada dan tiada.
Hidup ini adalah penghambaan.
Tarian penghambaan yang smpurna.
Tak ada milik dan pemilik selain Engkau.
Tak ada punya dan mempunyai selain Engkau.

Tetapi mengapa Kau harus menciptakan perasaan?
Mengapa Kau harus memasukan bongkah yang disebut "perasaan" pada makhluk ciptaanMu?
Perasaan kehilangan.
Perasaan memiliki.
Perasaan mencintai..

Kami tak melihat, Kau berikan mata.
Kami tak mendengar, Kau berikan telinga.
Kami tak bergerak, Kau berikan kaki.
Kau berikan berjuta-juta nikmat lainnya.
Jelas sekali smua itu brguna!
Tetapi mengapa Kau harus menciptakan bongkah itu?
Mengapa Kau letakkan sebongkah perasaan yang seringkali menjadi pengkhianat sejati dalam tubuh kami?
Mengapa?

Mungkin perasaan itu harus ada untuk mengimbangi logika.
Mungkin perasaan itu ada untuk saling mengisi setiap kekosongan.
Mungkin perasaan itu ada untuk saling berbagi.

Karena sungguh kami adalah makhluk sempurna.

(dikutip dari novel hafalan shalat delisa dengan sedikit tambahan :D )

Tentang Cinta

"Cinta"
Satu kata yang mampu memercikkan berjuta rasa.
"Cinta"
Satu kata yang mampu menggelembungkan berjuta harapan atas cinta.
"Cinta"
Satu kata yang mampu mengombang-ambingkan sebongkah perasaan tanpa logika.
"Cinta"
Satu kata yang berhasil meniup otak dengan berjuta pertanyaan yang tak mampu terjawab oleh logika.

Aku pun bertanya, apa cinta itu nyata?
Nyata akan kehadiran sosok yang selalu kita dambakan.
Nyata bahwa kebahagiaan, tangisan, kecewa selalu kita rasakan.
Nyata bahwa ada sosok yang mampu membungkus seluruh rasa itu dalam paket istimewa, It called LOVE

"Cinta"
Mampu mengajarkan kita tentang arti sebuah ketulusan yang nyata.

Karena, cinta yang tulus adalah:
"PAKET ISTIMEWA YANG TUHAN TITIPKAN PADA SESEORANG YANG MAMPU MENJAGA RASA ITU DALAM KEADAAN APAPUN".

Is it unmistake?

I'm scared of being waiting.
I'm too tired of wishing, why i can't stop wishing?
Though i know, those things is impossible to be come true.

Asking to myself, what's going on?
why i still stuck on him?
Why i haven't meet someone better?

It felt so worst!!
He had hurt you for a million times.
How often you cried in the middle of the night caused him?
How much tears that you've been wasted for him?

Does he know? NO!
Does he care? NO!
Does he feel it too? NO!

You got nothing des!
You'd fought for the wrong person.
Nothing, just a bleeding love.
Nothing, but a mistake.

You did much mistakes!
You waiting for him, it's a mistake.
You keep holding on his promises, it's a mistake.
You still loving him, it's a really big mistake!
You want to forgive him? Think twice before you regret it!

NINA - I LOVE YOU GOODBYE

Wish, I could be the one The one who could give you love The kind of a love you really need
Wish, I could say to you That I'll always stay with you But baby, that's not me
You need someone Willing to give the heart and soul to you Promise you forever But baby, that's something I can't do
Oh, I could say that I'll be all you need But that would be a lie I know I'll only hurt you, I know I'll only make you cry I'm not the one you're needing, I love you goodbye
I hope someday you can Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go But deep in my heart, I know This is the kindest thing to do
Can't find someone Who'll be the one that I could never be And give you something better Than the love you find with me
Oh, I could say that I'll be all you need But that would be a lie I know I'll only hurt you, I know I'll only make you cry I'm not the one you're needing, I love you goodbye
Leaving someone when you love someone It is the hardest thing to do when you love someone As much as I love you, oh, I don't wanna leave you Baby, it tears me up inside but I'll never be the one You're needing, I love you goodbye
Baby, It's never gonna work out I love you goodbye

On The Wings Of Love

It's good to know
I'll have your love, which ever way the wind blows
A guiding light
That will shine on though the darkest night
When the world seems like its full of strangers
And I feel as if I've lost my way

You lift me up on the wings of love
Taking me higher still with every touch
Whenever I'm weak, honey
You take me there again
On the wings of love

It's all I need
When you hold me and whisper tenderly
That I'm the one, you'll love forever
What else could I want
Even life where we all go through changes
And when the dreams I have, been swept away

You lift me up on the wings of love
Taking me higher still with every touch
Whenever I'm weak, honey
You take me there again
On the wings of love

Oh

I'm flying high
Its all I need when you hold me close and you whisper tenderly

On the wings on Love
Higher still with ever touch
Whenever I'm weak, honey
You take me there again
On the wings of love

Oh

You lift me up on the wings of love (on the Wings of Love)
Higher still with every turn (Higher still with every turn)
Whenever I'm weak, honey
You take me there again
On the wings of love
(On the wings of Love)

Fragile heart

A fragile heart, was broken before
I don't think it could endure
Another pain
But there's a voice from deep inside
Of you
That's calling out to make you realise
That this new bond gives inspiration
To all who feel no love appeal no more
So how can I break this wall
around you
That's aiding our hearts to grow
in pain

So forget your past, and we can
Dream tomorrow
Save our hearts for care and
Lovin too
It's hard I know, but oh one things
For sure
Don't go and break this fragile heart

A hurting mind in need of emotion
I don't think I could endure
Another pain
But baby in you, I've found affection
Affection I have never felt before

So don't let your past
Destroy what comes tomorrow
Don't go and break my fragile heart

With all this fire that burns
Between us
There's so much to lose, yet so much
More to gain
And if I could choose the world
Around me
The world to choose, would all
Revolve around you
So help me complete the game
Inside me
And help to mend my fragile heart

Poets Heart

When did I lose my voice?

When did I make the choice to be
living so easy in the quiet?
Too much of restless thinking
But they say time is everything.
You came and opened up the silence.

So I lie awake,
writing symphonies trapped inside me,
But now I know, what you give to me,
I'm living with the poet's heart, heart

Now all the lights turned on and I'm never gonna stop
As the words come out, it's because you lit the spark.
You're a priceless, timeless, precious work of art.
Though everywhere you are,
I'm living with the poet's heart.

Whisper to me again
You *fall* from my ears straight to my pen,
How did you see right through?
It's like you're always new.

So I lie awake
writing symphonies, you awoken me
Cause now I know, what you sing to me,
I'm living with the poet's heart, heart.
[ From : http://www.elyrics.net/read/w/westlife-lyrics/poet_s-heart-lyrics.html ]

Then all the lights turned on and I'm never gonna stop
And as the words come out, it's because you lit the
spark.
You're a priceless, timeless, precious work of art.
Though everywhere you are,
I'm living with the poet's heart

Oh, oh
So let's lie awake, making history
Yeah, you and me
Cause now we know,
so won't you sing to me,
our melody,
yeah

Now all the lights turned on and I'm never gonna stop
As the words come out, it's because you lit the spark.
You're a priceless, timeless, precious work of art.
Though everywhere you are,
I'm living with the poet's heart, heart, heart, heart

Now my feet won't touch the ground,
Yeah, we're flying high homeward bound
Take my hand, yeah, just like that.
We'll keep riding, riding
Don't look back, don't look back,
no, no...

Kata Hati & Realita

Orang bilang: "Ikuti saja kata hatimu, maka kamu takkan pernah tersesat".
Tapi, apa mungkin kata hatimu menjebakmu dalam realita semu?
Apa yang harus ku lakukan?
Karena, secara realita; kata hatiku tak mampu mengingkari bahwa....
Kamu (masih/belum) tergantikan.
Karena, secara realita; Namamu masih sering menggema di kepalaku.
Walaupun tak pernah lagi kudengar namamu.

Aku sadar atas semua realita semu itu.
Realita semu yang mampu menerbangkan angan-anganku.
Realita semu yang akan menghantam kesadaranku bahwa....
Realita semu itu hanyalah ilusi kata hati yang tak pernah terwujud.

Karena secara realita,
Aku belum sanggup mengenyahkan semua mimpi-mimpiku.
Karena secara realita,
Hatiku belum mampu menerima bahwa..
Realita yang sesungguhnya, telah menghantam keyakinanku atas hati kecilku yang berbicara.